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Tuesday, March 16, 2010

6:48 AM

i've abandoned this blog for quite a long time. my new home has successfully occupied me with lotsa of stuff. and the result is - this blog is leaving unattended! i've been transferred to this so-called new home three months ago. this home is named as SMK Laloh. just look at the name of the school. i believe that u guys might notice that its name is somehow linked with one of the 'hulu' names that never reached out ur mind. i am ok with its interior location indeed. never thought of me to wish to be posted in urban-school areas. wherever the school is, i try to be positive-minded and accept as the way it is...

however being in that school for 3 months, my perception is slightly changed. it is a swindle if i'm saying that i'm totally ok the school. i am pretty aware of the low English level among my students. even some of them do not understand 'Bahasa Melayu standard language' such as 'nama samaran' and many more that i fail to recall. to overcome this problem, i teach English by using 80% BM. quite often i think that i'm actually conducting BM lesson instead of English due to the reason that all the grammar content taught is using BM as a medium of interaction. what a sigh!! it is hazardaous to my English level. and now, sincerely i feel that some English words are just stucked in my throat. they just do not come out! writing this entry till this length is something awkward and difficult. i keep re-editing some of the sentences and re-spelling some words. my English is at freaking stake.... benarlah kata orang, 'guru itu lilin. kadang2 nk memahamkan org, dia sndiri yg terpksa bakar dirinya sndiri...' and what i'm doing now is, i'm burning my English...

the second reason of why i'm slightly not ok with the school is because of the some back-mouth teachers there. in front of u, they are really nice and loving and when they turn their back from u, nahhhh...their true colours show. they gossip about u, talk something improper about ur body and so on. what with that such attitude man!! u teach ur students some moral values but in real life, u dont practise what u've taught. it's a shame! i dont even talk something bad about u..what i always do in the staff room is my bloody-hell own business. i dont interfere ur life man...so dont ever interfere mine. just be grown-up la....aku x fhm btl la ade jgk org mcm ni

the third reason is- ade jgk few teachers there yg x sedar diri dh tua bangka tp still nk ngorat anak2 dara (sorry guys..using BM is more straight-forward and lg senang nk fhm). i do understand if they make jokes about their status saying that they are still bachelor in spite of their actual marriage status. that is still fine and tolerable. but what the heck with the act of calling me berpuluh2 kali within a day?? this did not occur just within 1 day..ni berhari2. please be shameful ok! i didnt answer ur call or reply ur missed call at all. that means i have no slight interest to get knowing u. plus, u r very2 old!! get real man!! seriously i dont understand him. xtau la nk ckap dia xde bini ke or duda ke..whatever la!! none of my business...sentap dgn org perangai cmni =S

tu la my school. full of colours and human species with different characters...

suddenly the song of sean kingston 'fire burning' comes across my mind. one of the lyrics says that 'fire burning on the dancefloor'. now, i assume the 'fire' is 'me'..and the 'danclefloor' is all 'my five classes'. so in another words, i'm burning my classroom. how cool is that?? heheh

let the curtain falls. 1 any comments?

Name: Syira Zawawi
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